s y l v i a

new phase of life

2010-06-22T01:45:00.000+08:00

sorry for the lack of posts. im residing in a new place alrdy :D

http://sylveeah.livejournal.com/

See you there((:

REVIVED BLOG?

2010-05-05T03:30:00.000+08:00

Last time I stepped into this teeny space of mine was in february, and guess what, 2 mth plus had passed and its MAY now. That shows how lazy I am to blog. Partly because of the huge inflow of events that had been happening to my life nonstop that I couldn't really find much time to blog at all. Months had passed and guess what, FO is over, bsc last event has ended, graduation in about 2 weeks time and then my life in TP is officially over. The thought of it is filling up my mind every time I step in tp and it kinda feels horrible. 3 years at this place contains a large amount of memories and I dare say, its one of the best memories that I'll ever have(:

I'll probably do up an actual post when I'm not visiting tp like every single day of the week to sum up my entire tp life. So till then, patience alrights, though i guess no one actually reads this space anymore since I'm on hiatus for a rather long time:/

Ciaos

after a long long time

2010-02-10T02:50:00.000+08:00

Time seems to be even busier after sip ended and i quit band, isn't it suppose to be the other way round? There's like not even time for me to even blog at all. Plentiful of photos and things to update, but i just seem to find the time ): In a way i kinda miss the times in band, i got no idea why, but its just a feeling. Found out that im giving this year syf a miss cause it lands on the last day of FOC. Yess, band ALWAYS clashes with whatever TP events, like since i was a yr 1. SIGHS.

Thinking back, i guess my departure in the band committee had been a rather abrupt one. But at that moment, i just couldn't take all the stress that was coming down on me. Like it was too much stress that i guess words just turn out abit too harsh also? I agree it was rather cruel of me to just throw everything on christina at that time, knowing that she's also having a hard time at that period. But that period in band seems like there's so much to do and i got no idea how to go about it at all. Like the expectations and the fear of not being able to do a good job. In a way, friendship is also affected i guess, like once im out of band, there's like no communication with them any longer. Awkward totally and i know i was at fault with those harsh words too.

Ohwells, there's nothing i can say now can i. Looking at the period after i quit the committee, im actually quite relieved that i made up my mind to quit band. There's just so many things to do in school and i probably/definitely won't be able to cope if im in band. For this, im speaking the truth, saturdays without band has nvr been empty at all. Instead there's just too many other things that i got to do. Im just wondering how band is now, how the progress of competition n everything. Kinda worried, especially for my girls. Yuh, i just abandoned them without even telling them and just left :/ I really really hope they are doing well. Sighs.

Sudden rush of emotions for band so i decided to type it out. Shall update soon regarding my happenings all this while. For now, band is just suddenly filling up my mind. Worried is the word i guess. Nights all, BSC event tmrw in school and i got to sleep now. Nights.

what is love?

2010-01-09T01:59:00.002+08:00

If I could explain love in one word,
it would have to be trust.
 
Trust that he doesn’t cheat on you
Trust that he doesn’t lie to you
Trust that he really likes you

Trust that he will always be there for you

Trust that he can go to a party and not get high or drunk

Trust that you don’t have to worry about him breaking up with you the second you wake up

Trust that he will stick up for you

Trust that he will never fall in love with another girl 

Trust that he won’t just get sick of you and

Trust that he wants you like you want him.

I love you because I know you’re always there,

there to catch me when I fall, there to listen when I need you, there when I feel alone.

I love you because you understand me, you know how I feel even when I can’t say it.

You know I’m not as strong as I say and still you never let me know that I’m not fooling you.

I love you because you make me believe, believe that I am not worthless.

Believe that I can be loved, am loved, and can love others.

I love you because you know, you know I feel this way but can’t say it and still you wait, letting me take my time to come to terms with the fact that I love you.

I would give my life up to be with you, and above all never hurt you, lie to you, or leave you.

OH LAST DAY

2010-01-09T01:43:00.002+08:00

Finallyyy Officiallyyy im able to attend OH tmrww :D Im soooo excited about it. AND its the LAST sip classroom session tmrw. No more of seeing the LO, no more sitting in the room talking about what happened at sip, the boring LO that doesn't really know how to talk. Can't wait Can't wait(((: And i can get my HTM BADGE tmrw, is LOVE okayy. Hee hee.

ZADAZ dinner today had been rather fun at the tampines mall playground. Playing of AEIOU, spinning in the playground till ppl feel like puking (or had puked, like ----, HAHAS!), singing and dancing of the side the side the side the front the back. FUN! But helllooo zadaz, you all PS me n amos when going home!! Luckily amos same bus with me, if not it will be damn boring and loner. Sister/brotherhood love yo :D

OKAY, ought to sleep alrdy, its like 1:54 am and i need to reach sch at 9 tmrw. GROANS. Even earlier than i report to work. Nights world.

i got alot to say

2010-01-07T00:42:00.003+08:00

There is like so so many things that i want to type. Last post that i posted was like 21st december and now, its already 7th jan. HAHA. I kinda just lost the motivation to blog anymore, or rather there;s just too many things to blog about that i got lazy, no one reads this space of mine anyway.

Life has been rather packed these few weeks, christmas with bimbs, zadaz outing, countdown with nexo, bguides workshop, pussy's bday, drinking with randoms, mass otc outing. The one week break from SIP had been the bestest and really make me dont feel like going back at all. Lunch meetups with ppl at TP had been the best, like yufei, jiajie and randy(: There's just sooo much to say and so many photos to post up. Promised to post up joyce bday photo, in the end i got no time to do it at all. Just too too lazy, worst thing is, i dont even know where i spent the rest of my time at. I haven even started on my sip portfolio which im really damn screwed if i dont start soon.

Open hse (OH) for TP starts tmrwww and you know what, im stuck at SIP. TSKKK. Hate it totally. Worse thing is, there is nothing to do at work except excel sheet after excel sheet, compiling of info and compiling of info. I tink i'll be much better use if im at the OH helping instead of being in the office luh ))): Last yr in poly and i cant even help at the OH except on saturday. Worse come to the worse, nxt week is I LOVE BUSINESS WEEK, and i cant even go at all. Yes, FML FML FML. URGHS.

And right now im missing soo sooo many ppl! i wanna get back to TP soon, and i cant wait for friday cause there's zadaz dinner meaning i can get to see them! Oh so excited((: sip PLEASE hurry end okayy. Not that i hate you but i think i love sch much more. This blog post is like so random and into pieces partly cause i damn long nvr blog and im kinda sleepy now, the thoughts in the brain just cant flow. Feel like clubbing and drinking now cause im feeling a lil emo, though i can't really hold my liquor at all. 2 glasses and im gone, got to update you all on the drinking session at liyibimb house with randoms like tweetbutt jolene, yufei, sholleh and my new found brother amos. HAHAS. Funny incidents at mass otc outing that i wanna say alsoo, i totally suck at captain ball i know....

OKAY OKAY, I BETTER STOP NOW if not i'll start to blabber nonsense alrdy. You can just ignore this entire post if you haven read it and decided to start on the last para cause this post looks long, if you read it, TOO BAD. hahahas. I'll give a PROPER POST soon, maybe like feb after all the submissions? LOLS. okay, sooon luh kay, i need to work on my supposingly new yr resolutions also.

Toodles~

i feel sorry for myself that im missing you. Dumb i know, stop me someone?

post otc syndrome

2009-12-21T12:08:00.005+08:00

YES, YES! Im back from otc, my LAST OTC that i have in TP )): Alrights, im actually back from otc quite afew days ago, but im just too tired to blog. HAHAS!

Posted to the cosca (which means empire btw) ZADAZ! At first i was pretty upset cause randy called to say he and hiuching is in the same empire, tgth with jiajie, irving, alex, and a big group of my main comms. BUT, zadaz rocks totally, im tgth with like amos, jolene, chrystal, fion, eileen and yufei! Happy to the max pls :D Overall otc had been alrights, i did have fun and all with zadaz and 3 days a row we got the 2nd place(: New friends made and all, and i would say, this year i really stepped up and doing the best that i can. Pushing the younger ones to lead and all. A tiring 3 days that i had, but it was all worthwhile ((: Im looking forward to the younger ones time to shine and all. DUA LOVE ZADAZ.

Started my GL journey because of how GLs from ZILRA inspired me to be one, and now, its the last year for me, im ending it off with Zadaz, another 'Z'. I know the coming FO will be a blast cause i'll definately make it one together with my cosca(: Last yr yo! I'll definately give it my all, and no regrets to it(: No more excuses for missing outings cause there's no more band practices((:

As said by jolene im now the 3rd most unglam female yr 3 :X Even when maybelle n jo-an came back and saw my empire cheering, the said i was damn unglam, and bucket and luffy was saying that my voice is damn prominant. Ooh mans. There goes my reputation, HAHAS, FO i shall be a lil more glam abit (provided if i can help it. lols).

Throat is like crapp now, with cough making it worse as well as flu. Ohgosh, i really hope i can recover soooooon, so i can go sing k nxt week. HAHAS. PEEKTURES time(:

ZADAZ ZADAZ ZADAZ ROCKS~

ZADAZ ZADAZ ZADAZ ROCKS~

ZADAZ ZADAZ ROCK SOCKS~

(twist to left and right and tilts head. LAUGHS.)

one more day to OTC

2009-12-14T01:59:00.003+08:00

Im kinda too excited now to sleep. Cause...

ONE MORE DAY TO OTC.

YES YES, MY LAST OTC IN TP

T.T

So so excited about it that i really wish that tmrw is OTC instead. I'll be completely restless at work tmrw cause all i can think of is otc, what empire i'll be in, who will be in my empire, what if ppl that i don't like in my empire etc. Just thinking of otc makes me feel HAPPY, especially when i manage to take leave for the 3 days just to attend the camp((: On the side note, i haven start packing my bag AT ALL. Shitbombs. And tmrw there's bsc meeting at TP, which will end at dont know what time. Oh dears. Shall come out with a checklist for camp and ohhh haven even printed my indemn form. HAHA!

This week had been a rather alright week i guess. Best things for this week will be the trip to town with my utmost favourite ppl hiuching and shihua snapping photos of the christmas lights. Pretty pretty((: And also BUCKET'S 21ST BIRTHDAY CELEBRATION. Regretted not getting her a bucket and pasting mickey stickers all over it. Haha. This is one of the most times that i ever wished someone happy birthday i guess, don't believe ask bucket how many times i wished her! I even facebook chat with her that day which was hilarious and both of us were so excited that we talk to each other in CAPS. Hahaha. Love her for her silliness though she still wants to pour me with buckets of water, thats why we are BUCKET. LASTLY, i meet up with my BIMBS on sunday night for dinner and shopping at orchard(: Too bad the photo taking session wasn't successful cause we spent too much time eating and chatting with each other. You guys are lovvvve <3

Thats all for this week i guess. I'll prob post up pictures tmrw (at work :X) IF i got nothing to doooo. HAHA.

Yes or no?

2009-12-09T01:08:00.002+08:00

Read jolene's blog and i saw something that she just blogged that has been lingering on my mind all these time. This is it..

So,
When you realise some that you care about,
some that you love,
some that you appreciate,
does not requisite the same way...

Do you still continue caring, loving, appreciating them?
Or do you care less like how they don't really do.
Is it worth it, or not?

(credits to jolene)

For me, i still continue caring, loving and appreciate them. Sometimes, even caring more for them, just for their attention. To me, friendships are like the most important thing in my life, so important that i'll try every single thing just to keep it going even though by the end of it, i might be the one ended up getting hurt. Even if they might not care at all, at least i know i tried to do something. Yes, you might question, is it worth it or not, i used to question myself this alot alot of times before too. But, i just can't seem to stop trying you know. People might say im stupid, silly, wasting my time, but to me, its worth it. Thus, worth it or not is deemed by oneself. If you think that its worth it, go ahead and do it. If even you yourself don't even think that its worth it, no one will.

Adidas event, standard chartered

2009-12-08T12:34:00.000+08:00

HEY PEEPS(: Im here to update on my blog, especially about the adidas event that had happened last friday. Personally i felt that it was a total new experience for me cause i was in charge of the stage performances, and the running of the backstage stuffs. Other than job scope wise, event wise this was also a first time contact because its a new launch. Overall the event was GREAT! Especially when there's like HOT MODELS to look at((: Don't believe, look at the photos below. Hee hee. I got to meet SPORE BEST BEATBOXER DHARNI too. He's real nice! And while being there, vivo have their own christmas event going on as well, which explains why there's pictures of mickey, minnie and my ABSOLUTE FAV CHIP&DALE. Cute to the maxx((:

This is one of the event that i enjoyed the most so far, apart from knowing more ppl, i gained quite alot of experience from it. By the end of the event, which ended bout 3am in the morning, all was worth it when the supervisor said i did a great job((: It really made my day knowing that, cause i really tried my best to run the stage programme that day, making sure that the performers are all ready to perform when it was their item.

Without any sleep, i had to reach expo by 730am for the standard chartered REPC. What i can say is......standard chartered is SUPERB! It was really damn fun, me and the girls were like hello-ing the entire day at ppl that came to collect their bib and all. Though its tiring running to get the bib, and times even running to the other end to get the diff bibs, i really enjoyed myself alot. This was especially worth it when celeste and my counter got the TOP 3 counter. DOUBLE WOOTS((: My first day working there and best counter!! HAHAS.

Didn't manage to capture any photos at standard chartered, but i did for adidas. Here's just a few photos from the tons of photos that viv took (especially of the models!) ((:

HOT MODELS!!

(don't you agree??)

a GOOD DAY

2009-12-04T01:19:00.007+08:00

Despite the angsty feeling that i had in the afternoon, today was a relatively GOODDAY (: Shaker fries make me damn happy, though that was all that i had eaten for the entire day other than the $2.50 macs breakfast meal (yes, cheapoo i know, but its worth it!)

AND, one of the best thing today is i felt as though i found back a good friend that i had lost like 2 mths ago. Conversations tgth feels nearly back to normal, msgs seem normal too, not the usual cold shoulder or ignorance. Thought that the msg will be ignored, but apparantly it didnt(: Im glad((: Welcome back, my friend! I hope you continue to be like this and go back to the time that i know youuu! I know you will cause you promised that you will TRY right? Keep up the good work. HAHA.

BESTEST thing is dinner with the tauhueys at Bedok 85. Met them after they ended their standard chartered(: The jokes and topic talked was rather hilarious, the fake smiles of hiuching and shihua when i took their picture, curls reaction upon drinking sour plum juice, my absolutely bimbotic actions which ended up dropping my chicken wing, shihua hideous looking specs and scaring the shit out of me. This all ended off with a message that curls sent to the guys(girls) after the entire thing. HAHA. You know what, they are absolutely LOVES :D

Alrighty, i've got a event tmrw for ADIDAS((; Got to get to bed sooon cause the event will end like 2am the nxt day morning? And right after that, i got to reach expo by 730 am for standard chartered. @.@ Will be totally cui-ed after saturday, wakari cui cui des? HAHA! But i guess all will be fun cause im with all my friends. Somemore, i can't wait to do the standard chartered dance! Its damn funny luh! Alrights then, TOODLES WORLD~

pissed

2009-12-03T17:44:00.001+08:00

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last otc briefing, goodbye band

2009-12-01T15:40:00.006+08:00

Being again to TP is one of the bestest time that i'll ever have in the whole internship period. Especially since its the otc briefing, which means many familiar faces will be around(((: First time otc briefing is at engine school, but same as ever, its still crammed like mad. 200 over people squeezing into an LT that is suppose to be for 120, my butt hurts after the briefing was over. HAHAS! The longest briefing that we had compared to the past 2 briefings i went before, the video was good cause it really brought back memories of the times in fyrhto(:

Appeal session ytd was the worst. First time seeing so many people waiting to appeal, was really a large group i would say. The waiting time outside was the worst of the worst. Everytime someone came out of that door, i was so afraid that the results are out. In the end, till like 10pm, appeal session was over and ended up results are out the nxt day morning (meaning TODAY). I swear i couldn't sit still today morning at all. THANK GOD alex and yufei got it((: If not i think i'll just break into tears. And to the others that got in...CONGRATS(: For those that didn't manage to, fear not alright. There's still nxt year where you all can try again. Don't because this one failed attempt, you all give up in being a GL alright? Cheer up alrights(: I'll be posting up some photos that i took ytd(:

Some updates about my life, one huge decision made was i decided to QUIT BAND. Yuh, your eyes are not playing tricks on you, i've really decided to quit. Now its just up to them to free me of this commitment. Nothing else more is changing this decision of mine any longer. Im sorry, but the passion is gone, the committee is no longer like before. AND more importantly, im not going to sacrifice my last yr at poly for band. No more missing of events like FO, outings etc because of band. I've missed so many outings and even FO Sentosa Outing TWICE due to band. I've had enough of it. My last yr at TP, OTC, FO, Week 0, BSC are now my PIORITY. You all may say im a bitch for ditching eveything in band knowing that you all need help but i really can't stand it in there any longer. So, just respect my decision and let me go. No point persuading me cause nothing is going to change this decision of mine. Even if you all don't support this, im sorry but im really LEAVING. The reason i stayed till now is simply because i couldn't leave the girls just like that, but now, i can't take it anymore. Even without your support, i know alot of my friends are behind me for making this decision. Because they know how must i wanted to end this, and to them, i should had done this a long ago.

LAST OTC BRIEFING

MEGA FOTO UPLOADS :D

2009-11-30T16:37:00.008+08:00

As promiseddd, here are the photos of what happened recently (Okay, maybe not that recent, like months ago instead :X) They aren't in any order since i cant rmbr themm, HAHAS. Its just to make my blog like more colourful and eventful. LOLS. SO here are the photosss :D

Yiqian's 21st Surprise Party

BSC HALLOWEEN (:

Spooktacula @ Images of Singapore

BSC@ NIGHT SAFARI

(or rather a failed attempt! HAHAS)

SOPHIA 18TH BIRTHDAY

Clubbing with BIMBS <3

BIMBS Sleepover (:

NEXO CHALET (((:

(plus accion chalet too)

overnight at business concourse, otc results

2009-11-24T02:48:00.005+08:00

This is kinda shocking,

at this time, this moment,

im still in

TP BUSINESS CONCOURSE.

im serious okay, just took the picture outside LT 21. HAHAS! Just look at my completely cui-ed hair after BIZSHIELD. Slacking around with jiajie and huiya, can't believe im actually crazy as them to agree to stay overnight in sch. Anyway, OTC results are out today at 6pm.

Yuh, thankfully i got in(: as well as the other 14 maincomms in BSC:D However, this time it feels really weird. Kinda upset seeing that some of my other friends didn't get in, as well as some freshies): The feeling is just weird that i start to feel afraid about it. Especially for two of my friends that i really feel that you two shld be in.

For my friends that didn't get in, you know who im talking about, promise me that at least give yourself another chance. Go for the appeal session alrights, you will never know what might happen. For the nexo ppl toooo! I wanna see you all in otc okay, you guys are still love <3

a weird feeling

b to the r to the i-n-g

2009-11-11T11:56:00.010+08:00

Work had been kinda b-o-r-i-n-g. No ongoing proposals that we need to do and all. How i wish im back to TP instead, AT LEAST there's like the booth that need to tend to, rather than sitting in the office practically doing nothing. And with the fact that we're not suppose to facebk OR msn, im doing it illegally which is kinda toughhh.

It got soo bored that i decided to blog and when i've made up my mind to upload pictures like FINALLY, blogger is not working. TSK TSK. Now, i've tooooo many photos that are so long overdues that i dont even know where to start. Maybe i just shouldn't upload? But blog has been such a boreeeeee with only words. Sighhhs.

This week is kinda mundane week, with not much after work activities):): Im missing so many ppl suddenly, like:

BSC (okay, i just saw you all like monday? but i still miss the crazy times in ROOOOM)
Cliquey (AGES since we last met up):)
Dounuts (last metup was like for my bdayyy??)
Nexo (i missed the last outing. sobs)
AAC (we meeting up anytime soon? LOLS!)
My bodyguards (when are you booking out wan!)
BF jeremy (BF! Our dinner date when? later i go find another BF le! lols)

.....and the list goes on and on. I need to meet up with you all SOOON. Miss you guys luh.

OKAY, im going for lunch soon. Stomach growling.

TP DAY

2009-11-10T00:19:00.003+08:00

OFF DAY today which kinda explains why there's no monday blues(: The day had been well-spent i would say starting off with a lunch with jiajie and yufei! The ooh-so-delicious-mensa-dory-fish is simply the LOVEE plus ice mocha from Bizpark. Spent the entire of the day at BSC booth for Bizshield and Bguides :D It was all okayyy i would say. Its just the first day which explains why there isn't really alot that signed up, but quite a few groups of ppl are showing interest which is GREAT! (: Day ended with a dinner tgth with jiajie (AGAIN), randy and alex(: An enjoyable dinner i would sayyy :D We shall do it sometime again alrights. Thank you guys for waiting tgth with me at the bus stop for my bus(:

Im so dreading work tmrw after spending an entire day at TP): Life seems so much better in TP with all your frens arnd. Im so certain that i'll have tuesday green tmrw! ):

my heart felt a tug when i saw what i saw.
maybe thats why they say im bnr.

contradiction of thoughts

2009-11-08T02:19:00.003+08:00

I hate knowing all these stuffs about you that its almost impossible for me to think any longer. The reason behind all these hesitation is because of just one word, and that is "friendship". If not for this, i wouldn't really have bothered about it at all. Maybe im really that stupid, i guess i am. Cannot believe myself that im actually thinking of ways of how i could possibly change you, to become a better person, or rather a person i want you to be? All this is just simply cause i really wanted to help, and not see you get into a disastrous state that by the time you realise, it might just be too late for anymore actions. I really dont know how stupid i can be, and im serious about this. Knowing that you are like this but i keep telling myself that no you're not. How should i deal with this?

I hate myself.
Stupid silly me.

A New Look

2009-11-07T22:31:00.002+08:00

It got kinda boring at work and so i started editing the blog template to make it all work for the entire Friday -.- yes, no life i know. This entire week has been a bore i guess, nothing much to do in the office and there's even a early break from work the other day :D BUT trips back to TP has been the main highlight of my day as always. Especially when you step into the room, it just feels homely and there's just no boundaries(: Thats what i love about bsc. I've got monday off which means TP DAY again(: Meeting up with ppl like yufei, jiajie, shawn etc for lunch or dinner :D

Clubbed @powerhse on fridayyy(: It was funnn! But the music the other day was better. At least there were jacq's fren protecting us from the other guys. AND there's a cute guy dancing behind me that nightttt. Woots. OOHYUH, i went for OTC interview today(: Interviewed by farhan n jingkai. The questions were fine i guess, and i would say, its really the most truthful interview that i've ever had. Every word that i had spoken in the interview was really how i felt and wanna do when otc comes. Its my LAST year, and i really wanna get in and really make an impact.

NO PICTURES for this post cause im currently using the desktop. My teeny weeny laptop is now stuck in the bsc room due to some miscommunication regarding the key. TSK. Shall have to fight over the use of laptop tmrw with my siblings but i tink i will lose. Im damn sad now cause i got no plans tmrw): Any ideas anyone???

Sickkkkk

2009-10-28T00:11:00.003+08:00

Arn't feeling too good cause i can feel a fever coming. Throat feels rather dry and itchy and i know a flu is coming too, cause i kept sneezing. Sore throat, flu, cough, whats next on the list man. Hopefully i wouldnt get sick cause saturday is the HALLOWEEN EVENT. I wouldn't wanna be sick and miss it, moreover im one of the organisors!! urghhs.

I'll be crossing my fingers that i won't fall sick :X

Life is GOOD(:

2009-10-27T02:54:00.003+08:00

Oh dear, i know i hasn't been blogging all this while, promising that i will post the photos up but they were nvr up at all! HAHAS. Been real busy with work as well as my life after work that i really got no time to blog a proper post at all. Only reaching home in the wee hours and after that i just dont have the mood to blog. Give me some time alrights.

Life has been GOOD all this while with like TONS AND TONS of activities after work which make me a pretty happy girl :D Even though it might be abit tiring but i dont mind at all(: The last week has been filled with a visit over to IITSC clubroom, IKEA trip with the maincomms, sophia birthdays (which also include HTHT session), night safari trip & movie with BSC, Tupperware event @ Bukit Panjang. Shall just state the stuffs cause i dont feel like blogging a proper post now.

Promise i'll update again! BYES.

a proper ending?

2009-10-20T00:20:00.007+08:00

I promise i'll post a proper post soon about my whereabouts and happenings for this few weeks. Pictures are not done yet thats why(: Currently im feeling not so good i would say, I really dont know whats going on with me, I can really feel that im not ME anymore. Not like who I used to be since it happened. Once again, I find myself contradicting again and again. Im sorry for all the bad things that I say about you, I just need to say it all out, vent it all out, then moments later, I'll find myself regretting what I had said. Who is to say what is right and wrong? Perhaps, all this happening is because there wasn't a proper ending to it. All was done through msn and smses.

To you:

I would really want to sit down to have a talk with you, simply just to get all the facts right, but I don't think I'll have the courage to do it. Afraid that I'll just breakdown and crumble in front of you. Part of me know that if you were talking to me normally like how you would in the past, I'll be fine, I'll really be. But its just that you really dont seem to care at all that makes me feel that being friends might not be as simple as it seems cause friends will care. There is just a complete change that I couldn't get used to it. Maybe its cause im paranoid? Is it, tell me then. I'll tell others that I hate you and all, but you know, the truth is I don't. I've forgotten about the things, but at times, things just triggered that emotion, making me lost myself in all the thoughts and things that I hear. Which happens to be things that are all bad and negative about you, and they just spread through my mind like wildfire. Im sorry, talk to me and clear my mind if you see this will you?

I hope you are reading this, cause its something that I really needed you to know. And also for me to know if this friendship is important to you as it is to me. Are is it just not worth it?

a hella week!

2009-10-10T01:51:00.003+08:00

OMG. The current season of ANTM, the petite models ep 6 was pretty c ool. They actually got in jabbawockeez and they actually got to perform with them. woots :D

This week has been a pretty hectic week with so many things going on at the same time. Every single day of this week there's something on, BUT it has been really GREAT meeting up with all those ppl(: Wednesday party over at eugene's house was not too bad! The hilarious opening of presents and the usual k session, mahjong, guitar hero etc. Im glad that i really enjoyed myself though i reached home at 6 and head off to work at 9am! Got an event which was a conference on Wednesday till bout 12 plus and by the time we reached home it was 1 plus in the morning. First time dealing with reception in a conference,which was an experience, overall the event had be fairly alright. Its not too much of walking around cause i was at the reception the entire time(:

AND THEN ITS FRIDAY(: TGIF! And best thing is that we get to report to work at 1pm cause the day before we reached home arnd 1am(: only 5hrs of work :D After work is TIMBRE with derek, eugene, curls, huiqi and michelle. ZOMG. We had a total of 4 pizzas but only charged for 3 of them! And worst is that we mistaken a triple cheese pizza with a triple mushroom! LOLS. ITS LIKE ALL OF US THOUGHT WE ATE THE MUSHROOM ONE! ZOMG. And the others sure can drink! My alcohol intake sucks totally luh, abit of beer and like apple martini and i can fall asleep immediatly :X Partly i guess cause i didnt had lunch today. But it was rather funny trying the diff kind of drinks(: Lets do it sometime again! Clubbing tooooo:D

Okayyyyyy, its a DAMN LENGTHY post, partly i duno what im really typing cause im like soooo tired. Pardon me alrights. Sat and sun will be NEXO CHALET. If its not for band, i'll alrdy be there NOW. TSK TSK. I'll probably post up some photos sooon (: OKAYYYY, time to head off to bedddd.

sylvia's BODYGUARDS :D

2009-10-05T11:59:00.004+08:00

The day with the 2 bodyguards

(OKAY. NOT THE BEST PHOTO DEFINATELY)
(Its from FO what do you think?)
(the TWO NICEST/ONLY photo is in wan's cam)
(AND, its the only two that we have)
(WE TAKE MORE NXT TIME!!)

You know, 2 bodyguards named wan and shawn picked me up at work today :D That made me a happy kid today and no monday bluessss(: It was a rather short meetup with the 2 of them becauseeee someone forgot he got something on! HAHAS. But it was alright. Though the meetup was short, but i really enjoyed myself alot. Went back to TP with them cause shawn got meeting which resulted in me and wan slacking in BSC room(: It was rather fine, some HTHT session with wan, and my ultimate bimbotic moments of @. HAHAS. Headed home with shawn since we lived soooo near tgth(:

I would say the bus ride home was indeed a good one, a HTHT session i would say. Hey you, thanks so much for listening and trying to know what had happened to me and all though i wouldnt tell you who is it, but its really better that you don't know. You make me feel so touched by the things that you say, wanting to stand up for me and all. But you know, don't bother finding out, it takes two hands to clap and i was at fault also. DON'T DO ANYTHING if you found out which i dont know how. I'll be fine just that it take time, so don't worry alrights. You sounded pretty angsty just now but i know you are just worried but i'll really be fine.

Though the time spent with you two were short, but i really enjoyed it(: You guys are definitely two impt friendship that i'll always treasure and i mean it. If i could, i'll tell you both everything, but this is for the better of others and i just don't want this to affect some other things. Don't be worried cause i'll be fine(: Love you two luh!

Once again "Every moment spend with you is a moment i treasure~~~" :D

empty promises

2009-10-05T02:27:00.002+08:00

you did something that you said you wanted
US
to do together

but we didn't cause we didn't know how

i wondered how you felt when you were doing that
):

yes, i love you

2009-09-30T23:48:00.004+08:00

Do you remember this?

Im sorry for starting all this again.
Im sorry that i miss you.
Im trying all kinds of method to forget but it doesn't help.
Im sorry.

I love you because I know you’re always there.
There to catch me when I fall.
There to listen when I need you, there when I feel alone.
I love you because you understand me.
You know how I feel even when I can’t say it.
You know I’m not as strong as I say and
still you never let me know that I’m not fooling you.
I love you because you make me believe, believe that I am not worthless.
Believe that I can be loved, am loved, and can love others.
I love you because you know,
you know I feel this way but can’t say it and still you wait.
Letting me take my time to come to terms with the fact that I love you,
would give my life up to be with you.
And above all, never hurt you, lie to you, or leave you.
Now I hope you understand.

Do you?
i dont really need an answer, i just needed to post what i feel

after effects of alcohol

2009-09-29T01:52:00.004+08:00

I think the tequila I drank just now is taking effect

Once again i find myself tearing thinking of you

Part of me feels that its my fault for not showing you all the concern

Another part of me hated you

They said thats what you seem to always do,

that you're just a _____.

In front of them I would agree to what they say,

knowing that if i said the opposite,

all i would get is "don't be silly, he's not like that".

But deep down i kept refusing to believe

This is how much i trusted you,

but are you worth the trust?

where has all the drive gone?

2009-09-28T01:29:00.004+08:00

Blogger's been giving problems lately, unable to upload any photos, so another day perhaps. Yet another mundane sunday of staying at home and rotting my entire day away. It just seems that I kinda no longer have the drive to even plan for activities to do, even at times when ppl ask me out on the sunday, I find myself coming up with different excuses just not to go out, but for no apparant reason. But you know, deep down I kinda know the reason behind it, just that i don't wanna face it. Sighs.

Saturday of band had been getting more and more tiring for me. I just don't have the drive/passion for anymore related stuffs, I just feel like leaving. Someone just tell me how can I do it, its not as easy as it seems you know. And partly, now in band, it all seems seperated, im no longer close to that group any longer. Thankgod alan asked me out for dinner that day, of not it will be another home takeaway dinner for me. It was nice chitchatting about certain stuffs and like always i would say its easy telling you stuffs that sometimes i just wouldnt wanna tell anyone. Its just nice knowing that you'll always be there when i ever needed(: Had a short meetup with hiuching too, which was absolutely loves lah. We just got to meetup more alright, more HTHT sessions :D

Work tmrw again. Nights world.
MONDAY BLUESSSSSSSS.

packed week ahead!

2009-09-25T23:49:00.004+08:00

BLOGGER DOESNT ALLOW ME TO UPLOAD PHOTOS ):

Overall it has been a pretty alright week i would say(: Work as usual has been fine, other than today with the lack of communication and all, causing time of around 2 hrs plus to be wasted doing nothing at all. At least now there's more projects/things to be done on hand, though at times its just really the same all thing over and over again. Groans. Tuesday had been one of the best so far, with QUANZEE chalet and the chance to meet up with wan(: Absolutely camwhore session to the max, i'll post more on Sunday :D

Currently im hooked on tumblr and also cardboardlove. Hahahs. Its really nice reading the quotes and looking at all the pretty pictures that i got myself a tumblr to post things that i would like to see, hear, and read too(: Cliquey is meeting up tmrw afternoon and there's band ): Im super uber duper wuper cuber tuber UPSET that i got band for the entire day. Eeeeks. Really hates it when thing classes. On the happier noteeeee, monday will be meetup with the long-time-no-see-since-FO-was-over-BIMBOCLUB(: Timbre timbre here we commme. AND most importantly, on the 30th meetup with my TOILET PARTNERS-kim & lynette :D:D:D

Can't wait for next week! Im glad i got every single on of you in my life to make it a meaningful one.

Yes, no doubt i still miss you and you're still appearing in my thoughts but im coping well with it. There were times i find myself thinking back and staring into space, but all is well(: Just don't ignore me when i talk to you will you? Give a a little more concern and thats all i ask for(:

i hate

2009-09-25T00:39:00.003+08:00

I H A T E

I want you, but you’re there and I am here and
I can’t help but miss you every second of everyday.
I hate not being able to see you whenever I want.
I hate not being able to look into your eyes.
I hate not being able to get lost in the comfort of your arms.
I hate not being able to make you laugh with a silly face.
I just hate being apart from you.
I hate missing you.

i need your hug

2009-09-24T00:22:00.004+08:00

you know, i need a hug badly now

but its not just any other hug,

what i need is your hug.

the one you gave that got me breathless.

you did it so tightly that for an instance,

i panicked, thinking that you were leaving me,

that i would just loose you if i ever let go

that was the last time we hugged.

and i lost you

iciness

2009-09-21T23:54:00.003+08:00

Another train of thoughts just crossed my mind.

Not a gd thing i would say.

From the care and concern,

to being loved and feeling loved,

and lastly into the dungeon of iciness.

Im handling this iciness,

i am.

~~it used to be me, and im no longer the one~~

tupperware and you

2009-09-21T01:18:00.003+08:00

im worried about you, do you know?

Goodnesss graciouss meee. Wasn't feeling well after the teardown of the event, like headache, dizzy spells and feeling nauseous. I guess cause i didnt eat much today, only had like half of a 6inch subway sandwich and a macs fish filet for the entire day. Sorry viv n jacq couldnt go back to the office with you guys to help put the stuffs!

This entire roadshow for Tupperware completes the weekend for this week. i would say its real tiring carrying out an event cause there's really pretty much that has to be done and taken care of. Manage to learn afew things too(: Like what are the things that we got to take note of etc. Work today was a lil more fun cause hiuching shihua n janice was there to accompany! (: Though there were hiccups, like the money maker machine.....HAHAS. Didnt close it tight enough and money started flying out. ZOMG. BUT still its been fun! Got to see so many ugly sides of ppl, especially singaporeans, from those uber kiasu's one, damn auntie, weirdos...all sorts man. The GP (viv will know!) *bright lights flashing BEWARE* are the ultimate worst!

Thanks alan and eugene for dropping by at the Tupperware event! :D HAHAS. Eugene is damnnn funny luh, cause we sabo-ed him to play all the carnival games including a mass participation game! LOLS. At least he got himself a tupperware prize. And i end up playing 3 rounds of scissors paper stone with john and had my hand drawn with lipstick -.- Urghs. But it was a fun day todayyyyy minus-ing the portion that i wasn't feeling well. Will post up some photos of the event soon(:

Ciaos.

tupperware event

2009-09-19T23:11:00.003+08:00

Having event for this sat n sun! TUPPERWARE event again, but its so much more fun (but more tiring!) compared to the one at queenstown CC the other time. This time its at plaza sing, pretty big i would say, with so many games n stuff. AND AND, tmrw hiuching and shihua will be helping me out at the eventtttt!! Its sooo going to be so much fun i guess. :D Got to know some of the helpers today also and their pretty nice(: John is a damn nice guy to talk to luh, and he's from TP though graduated(: So ppplll, do drop by PS tmrw then can see us!! And if you want, you can win some TUPPERWARES also. HAHAS.

I hate to walk home alone.

No matter how i tell myself,

thoughts of you are still on my mind.

Tell me what can i do to forget.

At least, tell/show me you care?

You said till the whole world falls on me,

you will be the last one supporting me

are you doing that?

all lies

2009-09-17T23:23:00.003+08:00

I’m single and

I’m more than content.

No I don’t miss your sweet talking and

no I don’t miss the morning texts.

I’m not missing a thing -

I’m more than okay.

I’m finally happy again.

I hope this is true, but you know what,

Im lying.

Are you feeling the same or are you already back to normal?

I didn't mean a thing to you i guess.

3rd week of work

2009-09-16T12:25:00.003+08:00

Its 3rd day of the weeeekk. And yes, im surviving at work(as you can see above). HAHAS. Don't think that im taking all this picures cause i got nothing to do okay, i really really have work to do, im just using some of the spare time to do this kinda entertaining stuff. hahas. MOREOVER, the 'big' shots are all not it the office(:(:(: Its only the 3 of us interns and marv(: ITs absolutely awesome i would say? HAHAS. Okay, im getting back to workkk. Researching on birds in Jurong Bird Park. Tell me how fun is that? Especially when i really really hate birds. HAHAS.

Toodles~

2009-09-14T23:50:00.002+08:00

would you tell me im special even if i know im not?

one last time

~~deleted~~

2009-09-14T14:53:00.007+08:00

Im really boreddd at work. For goodnessss, can ms helwina hurry hurry come and visit us at work.Im sooooo tired of waiting any longer, especially after such a FULLL lunch, its making me sleeeeepppppyyy. (okay, i typed this before she came, but by the time i finish this post, she came and left alrdy)Was on facebook and joey posted this quote which i find that if you really think about it, its true. Don't think that im emo-ing or whatever, cause im not. HAHAS. This isn't for anyone at all, just for those that fell of of love once, i guess this shld be what you guys are thinking too(:

"First comes the pain not knowing the person you love hurt you so bad you feel like you can never love again. Second comes the fact that you’ll never get to hold her or kiss her the way you usually do. Third comes the memories that floods back everytime you try to go to bed. Fourth comes the lying and cheating on yourself to finally move on and forget. No one ever said getting over was easy. "

Like i said, getting over isn't going to be easy, but who says we wouldn't overcome it? The issue is just on how long it will take you to get over it. Memories and flashbacks with the person will still appear in your mind no matter how hard you tried, but maybe it just wouldn't hurt that much anymore.

Why not just rmbr all the happy times you had with that person, which i bet there is bound to have alot, at least for me, majority of the time i guess we were(: Then go back to the time whereby the two of you are good friends? At least thats what i've learnt. Its really whether or not the friendship that you once had is more important or the r/s and the fact that he/she broke your heart is more impt. I guess for me, the friendship b/w us is something thats special in a way that i would never want to give it up, its just too impt(:

Back to workkk~

2009-09-14T00:10:00.003+08:00

OMG. The weekends has once again ended and its time to go to work tmrw again! Im soooo dreading work pls. Last time when ppl keep complaining to me i didn't believe at all, all the time i just entertained them, and now its my turn in internship and i finally got a feel of what they are going throughhh. Pretty much horrendous, especially when all my friends are at internship as well, so there's no one to entertain me at all.

AND TO YOU THIS SOMEONE (you know its youu...) IF YOU ARE READING THIS.....you are so ungratefulllll plsssss! HAHAS. Leave me there to rot during my sip when i entertained YOU when yours started! TSK TSK. Like continuous sms or msn with you plsssss and now you're leaving me alone! TSK TSK, what a friend you are. Its TIME for you to paybackkk. HAHAHHAS. You betterrr!! If not im going to severe all ties with you and end this friendship! LOLS.

Enough of thisss, on the sidenote, ms helwina is coming to visit me n vivienne at work tmrw(:(: At least its one thing to look forward to tmrw! And alsooooo,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY CHERYL JEANNE CHIEW!

most importantly my dearest bro

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ALAN!

(PS: see, your name is in caps(: and i nearly wanted to post the ugly pic of you that you sent me to cheer me up, but i figured that you'll most prob kill me!HAHAS)

2009-09-14T00:00:00.003+08:00

once again,

i found myself lying to myself

2009-09-11T23:59:00.003+08:00

You know, finally i had one of the happiest day after all that has happen. No doubt you can make me smile and laugh like how i used to. Even things that are suppose to be kinda frustrating and all, after listening to you talk or you listening to me, it'll will be fine. Its like one of the RARE meetups that we have after sooooo long, maybe even more than a yr? But im still glad we met up today, though it was pretty short, but you make me feel like myself all over again. Some things that you said were true but hopefully i'll get over this period. Thanks for sending me home though i said there was no need too. Thanks for all the concern ensuring that im okay, thank god i didnt cry in front of you! HAHAS. Thanks Alan!(:

It is my fault for pushing and stressing you so much, i am a stubborn person, but all i wanted was an answer. Something that could reassure what i am doing is right, that it is worth waiting/holding on for. After much thoughts, yuh, its partly my fault, but i really control what im actually doing and im truely sorry for doing this. I guess unknowingly i've gotten my answer. This journey will be hard, but i'll try even harder. No doubt thoughts about us will still flow back no matter how hard i try to suppress it but at least it wouldnt hurt as much i hope.

Thankyou ppl for being there supporting me(: You know who you are.

2009-09-11T16:34:00.000+08:00

I want things to be more than okay.

For you to say what you mean and mean it.

I want this tension, this awkwardness to be gone.

I don’t want you;

that ship has sailed.

I just want something other than this.

2009-09-10T23:09:00.001+08:00

Tell me i’m not making a mistake.

Tell me that you’re worth the wait, that you’re always going to be here.

Make me believe that i’m making the right decision by still holding on.

Show me that you’re going to be around to catch me when i fall.

cause you promised.

didn't you?

2009-09-10T20:56:00.001+08:00

I hope you know you’re driving me crazy. I’m growing more anxious by the second. The unknown really is frightening. It’s probably my fault. I apologize for always assuming the worst. It’s just that when you think the worst, the reality of the situation doesn’t seem so bad. You’ve got the cold war reenacting itself in the pit of my stomach. It’s the tension. I have to say, I don’t know how much longer I can stand it. I hope I’m not being too hasty, but it only takes a second to dial my number. A second of your time is all I ask for.

2009-09-10T01:09:00.002+08:00

GULPS

Results will be out in a few more hours time

As usual, im nervous as ever.

I hope it wouldn't be the first msg that i would always ACCIDENTALLY open.

If not, I'll get the shock of my life like ALWAYS.

Praying hard that results will be okayy.

*fingers crossed*

i really miss you.

2009-09-09T18:01:00.005+08:00

Why do I care so much about you, after all you’ve done to me? I mean, you’re nothing really special, just another stupid teenage idiot. But you were always my idiot, and that’s what counts. God, I used to believe in you. I really did. But I don’t know what to believe anymore. You blew it, idiot. I hope you’re happy. Just when I thought everything would be okay, you threw it all away. You changed before my eyes. It’s like these last weeks meant nothing. I’m not gonna lie, this hurts like hell. I’ve never hurt this much over another person. I want to be done with you. But I can’t say goodbye. This might seem backwards, but I don’t know what hurts more right now, the possibility that you never cared about me at all or the possibility that you still do.

Does it hurt you to know that we haven’t spoken to each other in days? Does it hurt you to know that we can’t look at each other without looking away? Does it hurt you to know that everything we had as friends is gone? Does it hurt? Cause it’s hurting me.

I’m fighting opposite ends to keep it all together. I thought we were going to last a lot longer. Besides, weren’t you the one that promised you wouldn’t ever dream of hurting me?

I just don’t know if I can. I’m not strong enough to move away from the one amazing person that’s been on my mind forever. So do you think you could please make this easy and just love me back?

-eletheowl

I think this website is cool, http://eletheowl.tumblr.com/
It seems to be able to xplain what i really wanna say.
Tears fell when i read them.

2009-09-08T16:12:00.003+08:00

Im sorry i just couldnt face you at all, its just too hard for me, though i really don't know what you're thinking at all. Im afraid that if there is just a teeny weeny eye contact, i might just breakdown and cry. Its difficult for me to look at you and think positively about the entire thing because it hurts too much. I really wanna/need to sit down with you to talk about this entire thing cause i just can't swallow it down, I may be acting normal towards you though sms/msn, but the truth is, im not okay.

No matter what some others might say, time and time again i find myself siding you, reasoning with myself and them that that is not you. That you are who i believed you are, not all the reasons that they might have thoughts about. I refuse to use the word ____ on you. Am i right or should i just agree to what they say? Things that i know that if you knew what they said, you might either be heartbroken and crushed as well or it might be the truth that you wouldnt feel anything. I need an answer from you, i really do. I need the answers betweens those lines that i don't seem to be able to depict what is your meaning. Talk to me will you at least tell me when you're ready to talk?

2009-09-07T10:34:00.001+08:00

Do you know what day was it suppose to be today?
I doubt you do cause you're just busy arn't you?
Or rather,
I guess you can't be bothered about it.
Or it just doesn't affect you anymore.

Read this from someone which i think its rather true.

How can you say you love me when you don't even know what hurts me.

2009-09-05T01:16:00.002+08:00

Today's internship was rather INTERESTING(: Me n viv gotta do some research on certain suppliers first, which followed after that we started doing some 'jigsaw puzzles' for the next day's event. Its like they are all game pieces which the both of us got to sort them out. HAHAS. I would agree it was rather funnn.

THEN....

came the most interesting part of the day which is.....'SHOPPING'! Okay luh, just kidding.. It isn't REAL shopping, just that the two of us are tasked to go buy a list of items that is needed for the nxt day's event(: I swear its damn tiring! There like a total of 30 oranges, 1kg of foam balls, serveral cans of food, cupnoodles, fruits etc. Alotttt of things to buy pls. Which ended up to us carrying two to three big bags each and we decided to cab back to office instead! HAHAS. Tiring but its rather gd in a way that we spent our time doing something instead of slacking in the office. Lols.

Alrighhhtttts...im off to rest! Taking part in the FIRST EVENT for internship tmrw! Its so going to be an experience and im looking forward to it(:(: For those that are free tmrw, you might wanna make a trip down to Queensway CC to go look for me n participate in the games too(:(:

Toodles~

2009-09-04T11:11:00.002+08:00

i tink from now on, i can blog every single day. Just because im really really bored now, there's nothing to do in the office now. Urghs, but its pretty fine. Had macs in the office today(: Unlike ytd night where there's such a nice dream, i suffered from insomnia ytd. Fancy waking up like every single hour. The feeling was indeed horrible. Its like you REALLY wanna slp, but you just can't. I dont know whats the exact reason for it but....ohwells. No point anyway. Shall go back to facebooking, bloghopping......etc, to keep me entertain for now till things are assigned for me to do. (:

2009-09-03T17:59:00.003+08:00

im sorry to say i don't feel good at all.

what about you?

i guess you're alright,

arn't you?

2009-09-03T10:58:00.001+08:00

i had a dream last night

it was a good

but as mentioned, a dream is a dream

it isn't REALITY.

2009-09-02T19:16:00.005+08:00

First day of internship was pretty slack i would say. Nothing to be done for today which totally bore me to death. But i guess from tmrw onwards there will be stuffs to do alrdy. And for saturday, theres already an event which we need to go. I would say at least i got a vivienne with me(: Which at least i could talk much to, cause the office is rather quiet when everyone just does their work. But all is well, i still like the company(: The ppl there are friendly i would say, welcome dinner is on friday.

Oh yuh, a damn retarded thing happen today, me and viv got to travel back home to get our laptops cause they forgot to inform us that we need to bring them. lols. Nothing interesting happen today, HAHAS. Shall c for tmrw.

Returning home from work, all thoughts was on what you said you were going to do when my internship start, Its all impossible now,that i know. But i cant help it cause tears just started welling up on its own. The walk home from the station was horrendous cause all i could think was you.

2009-09-01T16:54:00.005+08:00

yes i didnt know it will hurt this badly

i tried finding ways to understand, to help

but nothing seem to be of any use at all.

i tried holding on,

something that i didn't expect that i will do

but still it didnt work

i hate it saying you lied to me

cause deep down i know you didn't

but i can't help feeling it

enough of sleepless nights,

tears shed and everything.

im ~~not~~ letting you go

cause i believe what you say,

it would be the best for us.

im sorry too.

thank you for the short time we had tgth

the countless concerns that you had

all the thoughts n ideas just to make me happy

thank you.

i promise to take care of myself

i wouldn't fall

i'll be strong no matter what happens

and i wouldn't sway.

i'll be giving you the time that you need,

for you to be back to who you are one day

and to be who you promised to be.

like what you wanted me to promise,

you too do the same for me to what i asked you to do.

one final goodbye.

hopefully no more tears will be shed.

2009-08-30T10:00:00.001+08:00

i didnt know it will hurt this bad.

2009-08-20T23:02:00.002+08:00

First paper starts tmrw which is fnb. Oh god. I hope i rmbr everything. Its seems like i know buttttt...im not to sure about it either. Wish me lucks alrights(: Hopefully tmrw's paper will be alright and not be a torture paper.

Studying is all i've been doing these few days minus-ing the fact that i slacked arnd sleeping n eating :X HAHAS. Destination has been the hardest so far cause i cant seem to focus on that subject at all. Arghs. SYLVIA you really got to buck up! How i wish i was cleverer or perhaps let me have a BIGGER BRAIN. I think my head's too small so my brain is smaller too. HAHAS.

Alright stopping here for now and back to the NOTES! ):

i don't know how things shld really be

but it does seems kinda weird?

2009-08-16T01:05:00.003+08:00

School is officially O-V-E-R. No more projects to rush anymore, tutorials and lectures to attend. It all seems weird. After the exams of FIVE PAPERS, SIP will be starting soooonn. Moreover, i'll be starting earlier, instead of the 9yh september, im starting on the 1st. Hopefully the choice of joining the company that i had chosen is the right choice, hope the culture there is what we had seen in the interview(:

Anyway, just wanna thank a few groups of ppl for the gifts of my bday.

FIRSTLY, thanks to BSC maincomms for the big card in your bday msgs to me(: The mini celebration was rather a surprise cause i really didnt expect it. Thanks for the effort in buying the cake n also making the card(:

SECONDLY, thanks to you. For the effort of remembering teeny details that others had told you. Thanks for the cake (though it toppled n the strawberries are damn sour!), and also the music box(:

THIRDLY, thanks douuunuts for the card and the msgs too(: We really had got to meetup soon alrights. I miss you guys tonnnns! Especially JJ and hans!

LASTLY, thanks to the band clique. The effort of decorating the bucket that was initially planned to be a coin container but the hole cannot be made. Even though there were tons of UGLY photos of me, but i still love it(: And also for hungry's new clothes! (PS: hungry is my bear name)

THANKS ALL(:

everyone seems to be doing more than you guys. yes you all are busy, but arn't they too? Tell me how shld i feel. Like i wasnt busy during yours, but i still spend time doing something. It might be partly my fault for not wanting to meet you all, but, the prob is i don't really see the purpose of meeting if it is just to make you feel at ease. If you see this, it might hurt, but i really need to vent it out.

2009-08-10T23:43:00.000+08:00

This would just be a pretty short post(; Just to thank all those that had wished me happy birthday ytd, be it through phone calls, smses, facebook or any other means luh(: Thanks so much alright.

I would say it might not had been the best bday ever due to hiccups here n there, celebration being postphoned or mayb even forgotten, but im fine with it alrdy(: Thanks to the one that accompanied me for the day alrights, it wasn't anything spectecular, just a normal day out, but im fine with it. Thanks for all the thoughts of trying to make it a big event though it didn't work out in the end.

BIG THANKS to all :D

2009-08-08T23:58:00.000+08:00

Went for the annual 408'06 class gathering just awhile ago(:

I would say it was gd, though turnout rate was little.

Fish & co-ed followed by the usual hangout at central stage.

Chit-chatting session has been pretty great.

Looking forward to the gathering nxt yr!

Hope more ppl though(:

Heh heh, those couples that pangseh shld know who you are!

TSK TSK! Class gathering don't come go dating nia!

Not like we got cls gathering everyday/mth, ITS EVERY YR!

Make sure you all come nxt time kay!

Photos to be up soon(:

till now, its still easier to talk to you cause you always seem to understand(: im glad you're here for me.

2009-08-07T01:15:00.002+08:00

its turning around in circles

when will it ever end.

will it be a happy ending?

2009-08-05T01:34:00.002+08:00

i guess
things are just going to be different from now on

The past week has been rather fulfilling i guess, and in a way, BUSY, which leaves to no time to blog at all. Ha. School has been fine, but i guess was all busy with all BSC stuffs and the preparation for the long awaited BSC SUBCOMM CAMP(:

It was definitely an experience for me, being a first time programmer. All in all to conclude in this camp, i would say we did okay i suppose. Really big thanks to those that were in programme, especially those ex-maincomms who had really taught us alot of things(: from all the games, to night walk and also final clash etc. BIG THANKS!! And my loveliest maincomm in program: curls, chels and hadi(: i believe we worked pretty well tgth huh. Hope that all the subcomms had enjoyed the programme that we had planned out in the camp :D

Not forgetting the nightwalk helpers that we have from DSC, IITSC and TPSU. Thanks loads for helping! I'll stop here for the time being, too tired to continue cause there's presentation tmrw!

Toodles(:

2009-07-27T00:28:00.003+08:00

plants VS zombies is a nice game(:
im going to be addicted to it soon.
HAHAHAS.

thanks for all the concern you showered on me(:

2009-07-25T01:57:00.002+08:00

You know what?

BAND practise starts ~~tmrw~~ in a few hours time.

Yes. Totally dreading it.

Back to waking up at 7am just for it.

Even earlier than my usual school time.

TSK

2009-07-24T01:24:00.004+08:00

This week had been pretty gd(: No more worrying about projs/presentations or whatsoever related to schoolwork. No more late nights just for the purpose of completing assignments and all. I can nvr be happier than this(: Room has really been like a second home and it feels rather gd knowing more about ppl in the committee.

There's a rather sad thing though, which is....MY HP IS SPOILT AND ALL THE CONTACTS IS GONE. Boohoos. I hope i'll get a new phone sooon, cause i need to change my plan tooo. Been facebooking all this while and doing quiz regarding my name. LOLS. I would say the one regarding the analysis that starts with a S is rather true. Oh wells, what do you all think about it?

The secret mean behind name NG YA TING SYLVIA is : Life is never dull with your adventurous and restless spirit. You are always on the move and seeking a new challenge to pit your wits against. Being in touch with nature you love the outdoors. You have keen intuition and a desire for knowledge and you can be something of a crusader. When you apply discipline and tenacity to your energetic mind then leadership positions are easily available to you.

For Sylvia Ng Ya Ting whose their name start with letter S, below are the analysis result : For you, it is pleasure before business. You can be romantically idealistic to a fault and is capable of much sensuality. But you never loose control of your emotions. Once you make the commitment you stick like glue. You could get jealous and possessive. You tend to be very selfish often regarding yourself as the only human being on the planet.. You like being the center of attention. You are very caring sensitive, private & sometimes very passive. Turned on by soft lights, romantic thoughts. When it gets down to the nitty-gritty, you are an expert. You know all the little tricks of the trade, can play any role, or any game, and take your love life very seriously. You dont fool around. You have the patience to wait or the right person to come along. You are very generous & giving, often selfless. You are kind nature & sweet, which is found to be attractive by
many. You are a good friend.

I'll leave you guys with this two analysis of my name luh. AHHAS. Can't help being too bored about life. Band resumes this sat, which is total boredom. Urghs. And cause there's financial w/s and meeting on sat, i can't go to ndp preview with kim! Ewww. Im pretty sore about this! And and there's no plans for sunday, i ought to find something fun to do since sat wouldn't be much fun. Tsk. Before i forgot,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY EUGENE(:

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SHAWN(:

can't figure out anymore.
i think its becoming a habit.
good/bad sign?

2009-07-20T00:06:00.003+08:00

As usual, a pretty busy week though there's still full of bitching days with cheryl n desiree. HAHAS. Projects have FINALLY came to an end(: Last ever proj in my tp life, but im sure i wouldn't miss the times. lols. Left with presentations n exams along the way. This all reminded me that im going of for SIP sooooon. Ohh dears. I'll miss all my friends): And listening to this someone that keeps ranting about his SIP, it make me don't wanna go. I think im now damn gd at entertaining ppl now because of him. (yes. you know its you and i saw the thanks(: )

School again tmrw, and im kinda dreading it cause lessons are kinda bore. And you know, school is now blasting away national day songs. HAHAS. Even though i don't wanna think about my birthday, i can't! Cause national day=my birthday! Oh yes, part of me is hoping it arrives faster, thinking about what celebration im going to have. The other part is just kinda dreading it in case im expecting too much from it all. Oh wells, we shall see what happens huh(:

Alright. Shall not bore you guys with these stuffs anymore. Here's pictures of me and my siao partner apple the other day when we went to sang k(:

2009-07-12T23:56:00.005+08:00

A pretty hectic week i would say, busy with subcomm recruitment as well as meetings here and there. But im glad i did manage to spent my time well by balancing them with a teeny bit of fun here and there(: K session with some random peeps at teoheng on friday and also caught the movie TRANSFORMERS on sunday :D For those that haven watch the movie, you guys shld catch it soon cause its an absolute must-watch! Added to this, i feel damn retarded waiting for the credits of the movie to end, hoping that there might be some parts that were going to show after the credits -.-

One last project to complete which is destination. Hopefully all goes well yeas, though there's still quite afew more stuffs to be done :X The part that im doing isn't all that easy at all. Goshness. And its real busy with the preparation of subcomm camp and all. i really hasn't been spending much time with my family as well as my friends. Really miss cliquey and donuts! When are we meeting up?? Don't tell me i must wait till my bday! ): Promise me we'll meetup soon okay.

Alright. Im off to doing research for projects. Here's 2 photos of my dearest cliques(:

2009-07-07T02:05:00.002+08:00

R A N D O M S

After seeing someone's bday photos, i wanna have a pink birthday party too. Eww. Its going to be damn princessy n all luh (: HAHAS. hint hint ehhs. my bday is coming in a mth and 2 more days(:(:

School has been a bore today, skipped lect as well as tutorial cause was simply too tired. Am hoping that more ppl will be coming for interview tmrw(: Trust me, you guys will regret not joining bsc okay! Alright im too tired to even think of what i wanna type anymore.

Toodles ppl~

2009-07-06T01:28:00.004+08:00

every little things it made me smile(:

here's a picture to make you smile cause
i look like a retard.

Past week has been pretty exciting i would say(:
Every single day there's agm to attend.
but its been pretty fun dressing up to theme and
eating the refreshments after that :D
HSS agm has so far been one of the most funny ones cause the theme was geek.
photos were all super funny

Out shopping with gabriel n hiuching on thurs too!
and i got myself a zebra printed camera bag(:
had Manhattan that day which was absolutely delicious.
Talking sesions with them was great cause we got the whole Manhattan to ourselves.
gabriel caught a stitch and gave it to me(:
which is now part of the bsc room toys.
we even found out a super easy way to catch toys which is completely hilarious
ask me if you wanna know!

Sleepover at gabriel hse was one of the best!
sang karoake for like hours, pool table, air hockey.
To add on to that, supper n breakfast were the best!
tauhuay, soyabean milk, dumplings, mee sua, carrot cake....(:

ONE LAST AGM to attend for this week(:
AND
BSC SUBCOMM RECRUITMENT STARTS IN A FEW HOURS
4-6PM
(meet beside the bsc noticeboard for the interview room)

Be sure to come down for the interview(:

PS: ALEX GOH! Good lucks for ur first day at internship tomorrow! Im sure you'll do great there! I'll irritate you when i have the time but im sure you're too busy for that! HAHAS.

2009-07-06T00:10:00.002+08:00

helllo people
the long awaited BSC subcomm recruitment is HERE(:

SOOOOOOO....
please rmbr, frm
6-10july,
4-6pm
come on down for the interview.

there will be a booth in front of the bsc board telling you where is the interview room(:
So come on down and join us for a fun filling yr ahead!

i'll promise you definitely won't regret joining!
cause i never regretted when i join last yr(:

2009-07-01T03:36:00.002+08:00

This week has been a pretty crazy week i would say. There's so many AGMs to attend, or rather i would say im attending one every single day of the week? HAHAS. Every single day have to think of what to wear to suit the theme. Monday was black and bling, today was the 70s and tmrw masquarade.

But so far it has been not too bad(: The camwhoring sessions and also the funny moments that we have especially curly! Simply hilarious at times. And tmrw is the first ever subcomm camp programme meeting. Hopefully all will goes well yeas, time to write minutes again...

Also, MICE proj is handed up and now chionging for nxt week lodging proj submission. All these submissions is really driving me crazy soon. Goshness. But i'll still have to try my best to cope with every thing i would say. Im off to sleep(:

Toodles.

2009-06-28T18:29:00.003+08:00

tell me whats the reason behind cherishing
when in the end you end up losing it,
leading to disappointment

im blabbering nonsence again.

2009-06-28T15:27:00.003+08:00

This week had been a pretty hectic week i would say. Preparations for AGM, as well as coping with projects at the same time. But at least now, AGM's over (: Really BIG THANKS to all those that came and help us at our AGM and also those that took time down to attend(: There's not much that can be said except a big THANK YOU.

Project submission for MICE on tues, its roughly done just that we wrote tooo much, now got to shorten the entire report! Haha. As for bsc side, agm's over means the start of preparation for bsc sub-comm camp. Busy busy busy. Alright, shall upload some pics from dukes's bday, LTC, iitsc agm yunny's bday and also a pic on our agm. Will upload more pics when i get them frm zhao n hiuching(:

2009-06-26T03:28:00.003+08:00

Is it my high expectation of the entire thing,
making it all seems like a disappointment
or what?
i don't know

BSC AGM in a few hours time(:
yes im eggcited about it.
Hope all goes well.

2009-06-24T01:58:00.002+08:00

you know what?
ITS BSC AGM THIS FRIDAY!!!

Come on down to celebrate our Birthday by the Beach!!

Who say's you can only wear fbts and slippers to the beach?
Come over to our beach party with you glam-est outfit(:

Like your prettiest sundress or coolest boardshorts.
Why not wear pumps, canvas shoes?
if not your toes will FREEZE. :D

i'll be a Birthday you'll never forget(:
so come on down and be part of it.
Spread the word arnd and bring alot all your friends!

2009-06-24T00:20:00.003+08:00

Met up with my cliquey girls on monday night to celebrate yunhui's bday(:(:
you wouldn't know how much i missed them
its been AGES since we last meetup.

Gossiping and bitching sessions were the absolute best
some shocking news too!
time spent was short but it could never be better

As long as im with them, i'll be happy.
:D

one by one.
entangled emotions and feelings

2009-06-05T01:05:00.005+08:00

Blog is depriving of photos cause i haven really been going out and doing any stuffs thats fun at all due to the busy schedule. Sourcing for SIP companies had been a total bitch job -.- Hopefully by nxt week, either positive or ogl decides to take me as their intern. Pray hard for me will you? I'll be crossing my fingers real hard.

Currently I think im addicted to facebook quizzes, cause its so fun(: , and TRUE as well. FOR SOME. The results of some quizzes are really damn shocking when you realise that its utterly true. There's this two which i took, "what kind of mask do you wear" and "what are you hiding from people" which is damn true about myself. ANd im not the only one who says it cause my friends say its like me too. HAHAS. I'll post the results up(:

"what kind of mask do you wear?" - p u r i t y

Your mask is purity. You are always trying to be true to yourself. You don't care what others think is right or wrong, you always use your own judgment to decide. You often ignore the millions of rules people are trying to place on the way you should live your life, because you know they are meaningless and that you are a good person. Your intentions are usually pure, whether it's wanting to do something nice for someone, or just take some time for yourself. You understand that pure isn't perfect. You get angry, jealous, mean, sometimes stubborn, but you are who you are, and your mask isn't trying to hide it; it's just helping you get by the life you love and enjoy. .

"what are you hiding from people" - e m o t i o n s

You tend to laugh and joke around when you are with everyone, but you feel lonely and empty when are all alone. you cry alone when you have stress and problems. you often have many problems that are bugging you, but you never show them out on your face. you are not as cheerful as they thought, but you just don't wish to spoilt the mood of everyone, hence you hide your emotions inside. you are just a weak human with feelings afterall.

I really feel that this two is very very true for me, to the extend that it kinda freaks me out. Ha. So what do you think? What written is it what you know about me? YES/NO?

2009-06-02T16:03:00.001+08:00

i hate it when i can talk to no one about it.
urgh

2009-05-29T12:55:00.002+08:00

its getting worse every single day
oh gosh

there's no sip company confirm me yet
):

S - T - R - E - S - S

2009-05-27T23:43:00.002+08:00

There's operations and management of f&b test tmrw, and there's still tons to memorise. Worse still, friday there's another one, MICE. I really got no clue whats that subject trying to say and the test start at 8AM! i doubt my brain is able to function that early. Tsk.

With tests to worry about, sip placement is driving me nuts too. Everyone arnd seems to have a placement somewhere and its really stressing me out cause i've got no confirmation at this point of time :X I REALLY REALLY hope positive promotions will accept me sooon! I want it damn badly):

Enough of all the rantings, time to burry my head in the notes!

i hope what i'm thinking isn't true.
~~jealousy kills~~

2009-05-25T00:48:00.002+08:00

Firstly, i'll like to say:

BIG THANKS TO THE 170 PEOPLE THAT VOTED FOR ME (:

Be it zilra, fyrhto, nexo, quanzee, htm-ers, friends or those that don't know me.

and also not forgetting those that supported me throughout this entire journey, the encouragement that they all gave as well as helping me campaign.

BIG THANKS.

i wouldn't be able to make it without the help of you all.
And congrats to all that got in their various clubs.

With the new BSC committee up, i hope we'll be as close as how the previous batch is(: Tuesdays the first formal meeting, it kinda exciting yeas! And i got hiuching tgth in the committee with me! 3 dounuts members in the studies club, me n hiuching in BSC, alex in IITSC. Happy working okay, its absolutely dua love!

With election stuffs over, its time to really focus n projects too! 2 tests this coming week with several meetings coming up. I've got to mange my time alrdy. Off to start studying for tests(:

Ciaos.

2009-05-22T02:52:00.003+08:00

Election results in a few more hours time.
I bet everyone who is running is feeling nervous about it.
That include me.

im feeling butterflies in my stomach.

2009-05-19T21:43:00.003+08:00

You know what, today's the start of VOTING. Yes it is. I wonder how it went. Hmmms. There's no school today so while im doing projects, the thought keep running through my mind, "Will ppl be voting for me?". But ooh wells, what can i do if they don't?

BUT at least i know ONE PERSON voted for me, and the person is BEN(: I swear ben is damn cute, cause he suddenly talked to me on msn and said, "I VOTE FOR YOU LE". HAHAS. Okay, in a way its damn sweet too. At least i know i got ONE VOTE(: Though its only one, but still it feels kinda at ease when you know someone voted for you(: Thanks BEN!

REMEMBER PPL.
VOTE SYLVIA FOR BSC @ CYBER CENTRE!
Bring along your matric card okay.
There's tmrw and thursday left!

2009-05-17T17:44:00.003+08:00

HELLLLOOOS WORLD!

As some/many would have known, be it i told you or you saw my posters/flyers arnd school, or whatever ways luh. IM RUNNING FOR BSC. Sooo, PLS remember to vote for me on the 19th-21st May @ cyber centre okay? I really really need you guys to support me! (:

Thanks to ALL FRIENDS thats been helping me these few days, asking me if i need help and all, encouraging along the way and stuffs. You guys know who you are alright.

THANKS!

2009-05-12T00:56:00.005+08:00

Time simply flew pass these few days :X Just a few more days more, elections will be nearing. I wouldn't deny, but im pretty nervous and scared about it. Its just a total new experience i would say, its like REALLY running an election. I bet other poly don't even have this kinda thing that is going on. HAHAS. Even when i told some of my friends, they go "huh? really election ah?". And its so weird seeing myself really running.

Many sacrifices would have to be made, with band being one of the major things. Those that are close to me would know band has been practically part of my life i would say, and the colourguards are my responsibility. It might be hard to leave them for maybe a period of 1 yr perhaps? But, deep down i know its what i really want to do, to really play a part in making business school a better place for all. I really thank you guys for respecting my decision to at least give myself a chance to run to see if i can get in. Though i know you all wouldn't want to see me leave the committee. Thanks yea.

And also to the friends arnd me that has been encouraging and listening to my grumbles, helping me with the decision to whether i should run or not. People like alex, hiuching, kim, wan, apple, ian....the list goes on i would say. And also ppl that came up to me telling me they will support me(: Im really damn touched okay(: DUA LOVE LUH. I'll just do the basic stuffs for election and just leave it to fate then.

And like what ian said to me just now, i should feel excited about this entire election and not feel scared because its not worth it if im doing it for bsc(: Which i totally agree. Thanks luh, but im not silly sylvia okay! hahas.

ok world, i need to head to my bed now.
toodles~

2009-05-08T01:52:00.009+08:00

i need to blog.

but im too lazy to do it.

contradicting myself once again.

Third week since school had started, i guess all is fine, with projects and schoolworks coming along. Hopefully projects would turn out to be okay. Im crossing my fingers.

In a sense, i still feel kind of weird, maybe the feeling of being a lil left out? I don't know. But i'll say i don't really like the feeling. Those closer to me like hiuching, or kim might know cause i think i mentioned it to them before. I'll say we're people with different attitudes, or rather right from the start i was never really close to them. The things i go for in school like FO, tpsu, bsc, are the things that they nvr wanted before. Maybe thats the case? Oh wells~

Last week have been a absolutely eventful week for me. Cause i spent it with 2 of my most favourite grps of ppl(:

Nexo Night Cycling (AND AND, i didn't fell into the bush this time! BIG GRINS.)
Douuu-nuts Outing to celebrate hans and hiuching's bday(:

I'll post up the photos and update maybe tmrw? I'll see how, but i will do it soooon. There's tons of photos to be up, esp with douuu-nuts(: Hopefully there's another outing soon cause i really love the company of you guys! Also, if we only meetup to celebrate bdays, i tink the nxt one is mine, which is august?! Thats waaaaay too long. maybe lunch tgth someday(:

I do love you all very much cause you're another clique thats damn impt to me other than my dearest cliquey. Im glad we're still going out tgth even after fyrhto(: And we're growing stronger arn't we?

BIG ♥

i need to sleep now.

PS: TO CLIQUEY: To whoever is reading this, we NEED to meetup soon!!

2009-04-30T01:10:00.003+08:00

its so confusing
and its real tiring thinking of all the possible problems

my mind's in s swirl
should i or not?

2009-04-28T23:59:00.004+08:00

School's going to be such a bore tmrw ): Lessons frm 9am till 6pm, with breaks only at 10-11 and 1-2. Its bad isn't it? AND worst come to worst, its all tutorials. Ooh wells, i'll just hope for the best...at least there's mr zainal as one of my tutors(:(:

Eyecandy is now a big hit in facebook!! Im getting like over 100 comments on the video please. And there's another video posted by glenn with ryan singing. Goshness. Unlike the usual goofiness that i see in ryan, the way he sings is real charming. And im not the only one that says this, even guys say it! Seriously, guys that can sing well or play an instrument well is a plus point. Hopefully i'll be able to find someone like that! LOLS. Alright luh, i know its random.

OOOH, AND I FOUND A NEW PARTNER FOR NIGHT CYCLING. PHEWS! Hopefully he'll be able to go if not i'll have to find another partner ): And its damn hard to find another partner cause everyone just wants me to partner mattew so that i'll fell into the bush again! Evil people. TSK TSK.

Long day tmrw so i shall catch some sleep now. Shall post a picture of me n some girls at the barrage the other day cause blog is lacking of photos due to time constraint(: I think the photo is cute, thanks to andrew!

Im off to bed. Toodles~

2009-04-28T02:09:00.002+08:00

im currently addicted to the song

eyecandy <3

written by glenn and izat

its damn nice

(:

2009-04-23T02:19:00.002+08:00

Nexo is going for night cycling sooon!
And bad news is, i can't really ride a bike yet!
HOW??? ):

Sorry mattew, but i don't wanna ride a bike with you.
cause you laugh at me when i scream
and make me fell into the SMU bush!
that was a pretty traumatising event okay.

Can someone be so kind to pls ride with me?

Any kind gl/freshies/programmer
or whoever is going for nexo night cycling?

Pretty pretty pleasssse

i really really really need a partner!
):

2009-04-21T18:15:00.006+08:00

you're running through my mind again
like the shooting star across the dark blue sky

i can't seem to read what you're thinking
and we're drifting further apart now
i hate to take the initiative

can it be back to the past?
i miss the times

im only thought of when you need help right?

2009-04-20T01:23:00.002+08:00

School officially starts tmrw and im dreading it ): No more familiar yr 3 faces any longer. Or rather the graduates cause i'll be a yr 3 tmrw. The thought that this will be the last semester studying at tp sucks. And soon, it'll be SIP and will be time to graduate. Time really flies...its as though i was in my first yr ytd. Ewwww.

As usual im kinda scared of first day of school, cause i only know some ppl who are in the same class as me. There are alrdy ppl that has formed their project grps and all and its scary. It made me feel scared, and i think my class will be those damn chiong kind:X I'll just pray hard i'll have gd project mates? And i really hope chernron can change to my class! REALLY. And cindy toooo. I'll be keeping my fingers crossed. Wish me luck okay.

I shld go to sleep soon. Got to adapt to school life ):

2009-04-19T16:42:00.003+08:00

5TH TIME CHAMPION (:

yes yes yes. i love BUSINESS school yo.
and i looooove my class!
1H12(:

And of course my two other SLs partners, HUIYA and JESSER!
And i was pretty lucky to have 3 nexo-ians, john, fionne and linghui in the class :D
One the first day freshies didnt opened much i guess
but 2nd day i can see that alot/ALL of them were cheering(:
love luh!

Being a first time Sl this yr due to last yr in regatta,
i would say it wasn't easy being a SL this yr.
i heard some feedbacks from my nexo freshies and they werent gd at all.

Oooh wells.
Its over anyway, no point saying much.
I'll just hope next yr will be better.

i would say i gave all out for Week 0.
I hope i was a gd SL (:

Shall be posting pictures on ZILRA bbq soon.
i know its sooo overdued.
HAHAS.

2009-04-16T00:14:00.002+08:00

ITS WEEK O ORIENTATION (:(:

Im super duper excited about it!
Cause its the first time i'll be taking a class, due to last yr in regatta.
Im so excited that i painted my nails YELLOW!!
I hope i'll be seeing some nexo freshies :D
IM MISSING THEM.
And i can't wait to meet them all for dinner!
(:(:(:

AND AND,
i found out what class im in alrdy though i dont know the timetable.
3H12!
Hopefully i have some fun ppl in my class(:
Its like the last sem im having lessons in tp and nxt sem will be attachment.

Eww.
Im feeling damn old now, and i hate it.
Time sure flies.
Its as if im in yr 1 yesterday :X

Sudden happiness and sudden Emoness.
Ewww.

2009-04-14T12:42:00.002+08:00

I hate myself,
for not having the confidence in doing the things that i want to do.
I really hate it.

_________________

And your words spoke in riddles that i can't seem to understand.

2009-04-12T22:50:00.002+08:00

FOW/C 09/10 has ended.

For this FO, i would say i really gave it my all, comparing with fyrhto, I'll say i really changed in a way. For fow, i don't think we didn't start it as well as we hoped it would be but it was the last day that really matters. We all really gave it our all and most importantly, the freshies had fun and WE as gls had fun too(: The freshies in fow were really AWESOME! Really no words can describe them as they opened up real fast. Even though we got the fourth place in the end, it didn't matter at all cause we all know we had fun, and thats the most important thing(: Freshie Jee Hui was damn sweet tooo! She had lollipops, bottles of sparkling juice and even made cards for the gls. Its really this little things that really made us as gls feel that we really did our job.

As for foc, freshies were great too but it was really harder for us to make them open up as compared to the fow ones. You could really see the gls are trying their hardest to make it all work. The talk that yunru gave to the freshies about them losing their voices, and this proving that us gls did something right in this camp made me cry. All in all im really glad the freshies enjoyed their camp(:

This is really the most tearful camp that i ever ever had. And this is the last camp with the year 3s, which is also the last batch of zilra gls that i have. The last day was really.....i just can't stop the tears from flowing. Freshies were just beside some of us and they kept asking if we're okay and comforting us. Seriously they damn sweet luh.

Year 3s made a cheer for us and we too sang them a song. Throughout all these, tears just couldn't stop flowing, imagine nxt yr when its my turn to graduate. Gosh. For some of the younger gls, i would say they wouldn't really know how some of us are feeling. Without theses yr 3s, i wouldn't be a gl, i wouldn't even join FO. And most importantly, i wouldn't have loved tp so much. And it all started frm ZILRA(: Im really thankful that i joined FO in my freshie yr and having to have zilra as my empire. and now, I'll have some important ppl that i really have to thank(:

kimberly & lynette:
MY TOILET PARTNERS(: You two are really my best buddies in this camp! It really wouldn't be the same without you two. Those talks we had tgth, encouraging one another throughout the whole camp, me n kim always laughing at lynette's actions. Simply, i love you two okay! Its DUA LOVE k(:

NEXTOR GLs (yunru, kaiwen, shihui, wongie, rebecca, kevon, malini, rahman, michelle, rai, kori, jonnyboy, lynette, ruiwen) :
My fellow subempire Gls! Thanks so much for the 6 days alright. Unlike the other subempire heads, like derek, im not gd with words, therefore debriefs that i give were rather short cause i didnt't really know what to say n all. Sorry about that alright. For our subempire, i would say we're a grp of different ppl, we have those that will be leading gls, supporting gls and also welfare gls. This made us perform different roles to our freshies during this FO, and im really glad that we were able to work well tgth. We might not have the most enthusiastic freshies, but it doesn't matter, what matters the most is we really tried our best especially on the last day didn't we? I hope i did my job as a subempire head and im really thankful to have each and everyone of you in my subempire! BIG THANKS(:

The Girls(: (dola, ruiwen, cherie, jacklyn, pauline, huiling, liyi, phoebe, kimberly) :
Hello you bimbos! Really enjoyed the talks that we had at night(: We could really just tell one another everything, and in a way we also help encouraged one another to go further in this FO. Love you guys.

Year 3s in NEXO (maybelle, jiamin, wongie, fongyung, kelvin, yunru, dola, kay, adrian, kimberly, liyi):
Hey, you guys really tried hard in this yr FO(: The reminders that you guys give, the talks that we had and all, thanks so much! Especially to yunru, i really learned alot from you in being a better gl. And fongyung, telling me about how to be a better subempire head. Really thanks to you all!

NEXO GLS:
I don't think i need to say much, but you guys simply rocked okay. Though we might not have started very well tgth, but at the end, we're one nexo(: FO wouldn't have been the same without you guys! LOVE.

OMG. I realise i still got alot to thank, but i can't go on any longer, too sleepy. I'll thank another day alright, SL Tea Party in a few hrs time and i need to get my sleeeeeppp! I've got quite afew photos to upload! And i haven even talk about ZILRA BBQ YET! Anyway, it was a blast(:

Im of to my lala land. Goodbyes.

2009-04-10T16:15:00.001+08:00

I'll be blogging about FO soon, cause there's too many things to write and all(: I need to think before i type them all out. HAHHAS. Im off to ZILRA's bbq soon!

2009-04-01T00:44:00.004+08:00

you know what..

ONE MORE DAY TO FO!

I think im prettty eggcited about it(: On the other hand, im not cause im still coughing damn hard now. EWW. And it really sucked. I totally can't complete a sentence without coughing badly, tell me how am i suppose to cheer? Arghhs.

Tmrw there's QUANZEE'S first ever outing at tampines safra minds cafe(: I tink we're the first that has a outing!! WOOHOO. BUT i couldn't stay for all cause there's band meeting at night, which result in me missing quanzee and also nexo. URGH. Hate it when things clashes. I couldn't meet nexo not totally due to the fact that im meeting quanzee, but is cause nexo is meeting at 4, meaning i can't stay for long also. Thus im going for quanzee instead. Aiyuh! I'll see how tmrw.

There's sooo many overdued photos! After Fo is over okay! Totally got no time to post them up at all.

TAG REPLIES

WAN: HAHAS. are you serious i made you wanna cry? AND stop ur best SL lohhhs. What you damn nobb..who u trying to kid hur? HAHAS.

kaiwen: of course i love the programmers luh! Got u inside also okay! (:

shawn: HAHAS. Wan deserve it MORE OKAY!

fishy: TSK TSK. another best SL again, i swear if i hear it again im going to kill the person. Ha.

ian: Stupid ian. Thats damn lame and you know why! HAHAS.

2009-03-28T15:39:00.002+08:00

SL CAMP

SL CAMP has been an absolute blast!

QUANZEE is my group

and i was damn happy WAN is in my group(:

FA Suffian has been greeaat.

As well as the other membrs in the group.

Debrief that day had been heartwarming i would say.

There were times where a few of us felt frustrated that some ppl in the group weren't cheering, and we kept pushing you guys. It isn't on purpose, we just want all of you guys to have fun and cheer with all ur might. I really would say i tried giving in my all in this camp. Firstly, i hope this camp would be a memorable one for wan as its his last camp and secondly is to push those younger ones so that in week 0 they would be able to lead a class well as we won't be there to guide them. Im really really glad quanzee got the second place and on the last day everyone was cheering(:

Wan should be the Best SL in quanzee, everyone was expecting it, but he kinda gave me the chance. So thanks wan and sufian for the best SL though i'll still say, wan should be the one taking the award. And i still kinda hate u two for making me the best sl cause wan SHOULD be the one. Pouts. Overall, SL camp had been the best! Programmers this time round were really goood, except i prefer the old way of night walk(: Thumbs up to all in the camp, the maincomms, foodmin, loggers, vc!

DINNER & DANCE - OCCUPAZIONE :D

Went for dnd this week toooo(: It has been real fun seeing everyone dressed up as the different occupations. Some funny ones were mario, pope and the chinese version king. HAHAS. As for me, im a ballerina, something that i've always wanted to be. I'll be posting the pictures up real soon when i have the time cause nothing could explain this whole experience except through the pictures(:

Pictures will be up sooon, too many overdues pictures. HAHAS. I think i got myself a new eyecandy tooo(: wahahas.

2009-03-23T00:51:00.002+08:00

Band camp is OVER. OOH YEAS. I would say it isnt THAT bad this time round? Not as tiring and all as there's not much sewing to be done, or staying up late till the unearthly time. Some things that pisses me off i would say is the discipline of the band and all? It all kinda SUCKED. Oh wells. The sun was damn hot the three days of camp, and now, i've gone darker! it reminds me of my band days where we all have those AWFUL uneven tones. EWWWWW.

SL CAMP is tomorrow! I bet it'll be FUN FUN FUN(: Hopefully i'll have friends that i know in my grp and they will all rawked, which i know they will! Some macho guys in my grp toooo, cause there's going to be night walk. IM DAMN SCARED OF NIGHT WALKS OKAY. I rmbr during bsc camp i just keep screaming and whining throughout. HAHAS. I'll update once all is over cause thursday is dnd!

PS: i haven start packing my camp bag
PPS: i don't really have a costume for dnd yet.....:X

2009-03-19T02:41:00.002+08:00

Band Camp will be starting in a few hours time,

im dreading it.

Whilst packing my bag,

i just can't stop whining, be it my mother or to friends on msn.

im such a whiner.

HAHAS.

Thurs - Fri: BAND CAMP

Next Week

Mon - Wed: SL Camp

Thurs: Dinner & Dance

Fri: Friends Gathering

next week is the loves (:

i'll upload pictures of gala dinner and costume searching with hiuching after nxt week